To commit suicide requires a bitter lot of courage and self-determination, when carrying a gun on your hand shoving into your mouth, what you think at that moment varied not a little to the next finger movement of pulling the trigger.

This is what I received from watching A Single Man, a sad story of solitude after loving the one you love over a 16 year relationship and a sudden crow news stumbled your world towards the end of your life. Colin Firth had a great performance with his dorky look but exceptionally Tom Ford like. I would want it to be a clean ending but it got into a rather dramatic one, still, it seems to me, that I, as a person, could not have the same self-control like Colin over the so many different illustrated desires in a single day.

If I were to have the same house, same couch, same fireplace with same book, and same music, would it matter to anyone to have a dog and a somebody lying on the other side?

Is being lost of someone making you sadder or angrier than somebody left you? The old phrase saying the latter, because we do not know what happened after you died, at least we know when two person are still alive, both of them would suffer emotionally for a period of time, giving both cared about each other before.

So the question is, time, how long does it take to heal. 1 mathematical formula is 7 years, but I don’t have so many of this, I wish 7 days would suffice the feeling to be subsided, then again, just like today, I thought about Frederick when listening to 1234567, that is after 3 or 4 years, the feeling was still there, sure it got subsided, but it had never really left.

So, thank you for smoking, your puff has clogged my heart and it will never be the same again.

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