Day 21
Status - still cough.

I don’t know what makes me still being sick, I feel so down for the past 21 days, and I believe my grievance is air borne, as it has transmitted to other people over my surroundings. For one, those in my office, and BB Alvin of course, he hasn’t been happy for pretty long time now, and now I have to blame it on my sickness. It isn’t what I wanted, but I couldn’t help it, and I can’t say sorry for things that I couldn’t help.

For the past 21 days, I have no mood to socialize, I have no desire to talk, I have no appetite to even smile, the disease is not only affecting my nose, my throat, my body, but also my mental, my emotion, my soul. It is troubling my mind.

Wait a second, should I really blame it on the virus? Was it just me? Perhaps it is I who got me into this stage, the emotion breakdown phase, the one that builds solely by pressure and collapse like a thunderstorm. I feel like my life has no meaning, I feel like I can’t achieve anything, I feel like I have so many obstacles that I couldn’t even break through one.

Oh I feel so down, no sad, just down. Now leave me alone to grief.

This entry was posted on Friday, September 21st, 2007 @ 3:31 pm on the category Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.