It’s like having the critics over the newspaper, now I know how it felt for those struggling un-famous actors looking for a breakthrough, yet it was pouring like ice cold water all over them when they got it a wiped off by a single or two lines of comment from the people’s voice.

My last performance being an MC over the half year sales recognition was a disaster, I knew it well, because I didn’t prepare and didn’t know how, and I wasn’t paying much attention to it because it was solely not really my talent for public speaking, let alone trying to be humorous. And let’s just forget about mis-pronouncing that big guy’s name, today looking through the emails I found the real critics from the people’s voice, I found myself drowning over their sneers and words.

It wasn’t as painful as it could be, and it actually serves the purpose of me being the next MC 5 months later, and I didn’t really actually care much about it. But you know, you just have been struck down by a lighting and said “Oh, that’s hot” that kind of feeling. So what I am not an entertainer, I am only daydreaming that I am a super star as always, it still won’t stop me from thinking that, perhaps an older star, but still as charming, so what, it’s always living inside my mind, disregarding what really people think.

But the truth let down a simple dream, which is true, by now, so I guess I will only always play this fantasy over my head, than in front of a total crowd next time, just in case my heart is not as healthy as before.

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