I spent almost RMB2,000 on this trip, which 60% went to air ticket, the fucking expensive airlines who supplied me with cold bread and really lousy rice and weird tasted fish balls, and not to mentioned the smelly passengers whom I had to live with over a total return way of almost 4 hours. And they charged me for that, well, I paid for that comes to that, fucking stupid!

The airport, the bus, the street, the hostel, the food (even KFC!), the river, the traffic, the waiting, the service, the glaring of people, the price, they are all screaming at me like an angry bitch, shouting at me to get away from their fucking sight, wanting nothing more of me if ever I could offer a little bit of sympathy.

The buildings were shit, the food were shit, the drivers were shit, the sky was shit, the weather was shit, the crowd was shit, the culture was shit, the whole system was a total mess, like shitting in a bowl which is already leaking full of other people’s shit, and after your arse got smeared with other people and your own shit, you realized that there was no toilet paper…

And what so fucking wonderful was when you finished your 5 dragging days in torturing yourself and treating yourself like shit, you went back to lonely bitter cold Xiamen to only found out a bigger pile of shit was waiting for you, that you had to run to work straight as you landed, and to found out some deep shit fucker had revoked your access and you couldn’t work and the next day everyone was screaming at you why didn’t you got prepared for this shit, and it actually worked to make you think that you have regretted to take the trip even it was already shit, and it just made the 5 dragging days become more shit-ter than you could ever take for a fucking decision in your life.

(eh-hem, actually I wasn’t that depressed, it was only meant for literacy purpose. Well, except the last paragraph, to which we already know I am living in this bitter lonely cold Xiamen (smile~)

It was a trip planned 14 months ago, so no one is obliged to know what was really going on when it actually came. As for I, I went to Hainan as planned, but not as planned from my departure location (which is making a big deal to me now), and other things goes, we have a guest of party, making fit for a mahjong table, or in our case, a fitted cab.

While Keeyit and SST still looked the same after 4 months of apart, things have changed so much over the time and I felt like things will not going to be the same anymore as of 14 months ago as we know it. Still it was great that we kept our promises and satisfied each other’s hope (among other things) in keeping in touch once again.

I intended to keep this trip as simple and as lazy it could be, because from every corner of info I got, it is not a very exciting place to visit. Don’t get me wrong, the beach is pretty nice, and I love to watch the sun scorching over me again with the bitter lonely cold winter back there in Xiamen, but really, the island has not many things that interest my muse besides a place of I don’t need to do anything about my real life.

So I enjoyed with the company of my friends, whom I could talk to without a second thought of offending them (which proved me wrong) whom I could trust with all my heart, whom I could pour my heart to comes to that (although I resisted for a long 5 mins). But yeah, it was great to have such friends, even now I can only meet them so scarce it kills me for sacrificing them over my life. As for Chimp, well, let’s just say a closet is yet not too big for everyone.

Maybe this is good, maybe a trip like this signified some signal that I should feel grateful again for things and people around me. Maybe a trip like this would stop as we say it, but a time stamp like what I have over these photos means millions to me.

This is the part of the year where Shawn has decided to treat himself a little nice, and this year, to kick off a series of coming trips, Shawn went to Hainan to meet up with his fag & hag for a little sun over a cold bitter lonely Xiamen (ouch!)

What Haikou and Sanya offered could not satisfy Shawn much as he is a selfish greedy bitch who couldn’t get enough of nice view, eye candy and good food. For as much as the sunny beaches and half naked men and women, the so called crystal clear sea was not so crystal, the white sandy beach was not so white, and don’t even get him started on half naked human, scuff~

For eye candy we all already know how developed an island like Hainan is, so there is nothing much we could say eh? As for good food, well, there was the nice seafood he enjoyed, but then again, nothing else much to say (except for the candy, and I mean real candy, which is rather good to chew)

Nevertheless, Shawn did came out to the sun and get a little expose to meet up with his fans, and he has a rather smooth time over this 5 day trip. If he must consider more, that will probably the last time he sets his eye over this big-bold-rude-expensive-crowded-absurdly bored location, pun intended.

There ain’t no fairy tale,

there is no fantasy comes true,

and there is no promise not to be broken.

We are all human being,

making mistakes,

making huge and stupid mistakes comes to that,

feeling guilty but the damage is done and we ain’t doing anything to it.

We are all human being,

falling in love,

falling into huge and stupid love comes to that,

feeling heart broken after that as the damage is done and we couldn’t do anything to it.

It is time to open my eyes,

it is time to get up on my feet,

and it is also time to wake up.

They are the ultimate fantastic four for my crave but unfortunately they are the fantastically expensive four in Xiamen.

Coffee sells like Starbucks and Coffeebean but they are not, but good thing is they have really nice ambient environment, some even cute, and the coffee they serve are mostly instant grilled, so call me old fashion, but my coffee are manufactured! I missed Kopi-peng~ sigh~

Cheesecake is scarce and the one that I found wasn’t good even the price is similar. I think Chinese just don’t prepared to eat dairy products yet and I am sad because 3 of my ultimate fantastic four are dairy products. How I miss New York cheese~ sigh~

Chocolate is common here, but they are limited to Dove and I didn’t like milk chocolate, so I have to go Metro to buy imported chocolate, which a lot more expensive, but when it melt in your mouth, it seems all are worth it. Especially the introduction of Truffles, OMG~ I love it! but expensive, sigh~

Ice Cream, same like chocolate, the common one limited to cone and magnum stick, which is good, but I really prefer the whole bucket thing, and I just recently bought one which cost me RMB80 for a liter…. sigh…

My ultimate fantastic four~ my fantastic ultimate bloody stomach money wagger.

I am sick. Again.

I was sleeping the other night, and puff~ sneeze sneeze sneeze I didn’t know why, and I didn’t care and kept sleeping, and sneeze sneeze sneeze~

And puff, the next day I’m sick, catching a cold, sneezing non stop. And last night I slept whole night since I got back from dinner and this was rewarding. Because today I didn’t sneeze at all and it has gone to phase two.

So let’s finger crossing that I will be alright by this weekend. Fingers crossing~~

It is true that I prefer a warmy Mariah than the slutty one now. Her clothes is getting less and less by each album. And in this latest one, she has to put 3 of her clones with almost nothing on with such a skin type plain white lingerie, I really don’t know what is she thinking, because she doesn’t have to flaunt her already chubby body to distract people from her voice and talent.

Anyway, I didn’t anticipate this album because I thought the title was so fake and pretending, and the 1st single Obsessed is like a slut or a whore singing for her dramatic queen life. So this is totally a turn off, so I just feel like this is another Rainbow album and didn’t want to bother putting interest in her.

But eventually I downloaded it and put in my desktop for the longest time until I started to listen to it yesterday. Bang~ well, not exactly that shock, but yeah, the album is easier to digest than I thought, I thought I would expect a lot of Black rap but it wasn’t any. I was running my 10km jog while putting the music on and yeah, it was better than I thought. And Angel Cry is already a very potential chart topping song in my list~

Anyway, this is something that probably will keep me busy for sometime after a disappointing Norah Jones’ The Fall. John Mayer was good, but I needed better~ >_<

Well, no chicken that I have to put big bold characters so to match with its awesomeness.

This is the first movie I watched in China after 5 years, and the first time watching a 3D movie (shame that I never did IMAX when I was in KL for a f*king 3 long years). And perhaps it was the 3D glasses, I couldn’t enjoy the movie as much as I had hoped if I were to do a 2D version.

Nevertheless, the movie awesomeness is still blowing every particle of my body. The story line is as plain as the oldest story, boy meets girl (the girl is 3m tall….well), girl hates boy, boy hang out with girl, boy falls in love with girl, girl accepted boy, girl got into trouble, boy becomes a hero and save the world, girl and boy lives happily ever after.

What is somehow unusual is the CG, the new fantasy world that Cameron created, although major-ly resembling WarCraft III the night elf tribe, but still it is great to have a movie coming from such a genre.

The annoying part is the movie is doing too great over the box office, I know it is a great movie, but somehow I think it is over rated. Still I would give this movie a 5 stars out of 5, because of SAM WORTHINGTON!!!!! because of the night glowing nature, because of the thongs they are wearing (oops), because of the fantastical creatures and because good people dies too….

I’ve been dreading work. More and more thinking about changing to something that I really like, but with a lot less money, which eventually got turn off due to that. Sian~

I’ve been thinking. More and more dreading the moments that I love and all that could change, but with a lot less reality, which eventually got turn off due to that. Sian~

So when?

So will that be?

So how far am I from here?

So when will that be and how far from here?

I can only close my eyes, keep on thinking.

I can only open my eyes, keep on working.

Hm, so where should I start?

Yongy Cantoloni told me that never give up is a good thing, even the world is somehow unfair that eventually my effort will not payoff and going down to the stinky drain, at least I should not feel regret that I didn’t try in the first place.

But you know the saying, when it is not yours, it is not yours no matter how much you pursue it. Big Guy told me it is not meant to be then it is not meant to be.

I know both statements are very much contradicted when it comes to action, I mean you already knew it is not meant to be, but you would still try it and eventually not getting what you want and you might feel a little okay because you knew at least you have tried. Then again, like Jack trying on a pregnancy test tube, it is still a little disappointing.

I know this type of scenario happens to everyone at least once in recent days on anything, but the point is, if we already knew it is not meant to be, should we still try? will the effort and time equivalent to the little contentment you will feel after you thought you have tried? Is that fair even though the world is unfair?

I need a shrink. Aiyoo~